" I do not know you anymore Mason." I hear a familiar feminine voice I know too well already.
"Yea? You n…" Mason tries to talk but she cut's him off.
"What the f***. Do not f*** with me right now. Who the f*** are you, telling me how Im supposed to live or who I'm supposed to bring home? Do not…" They are arguing in the hallway.
Well from the point when I cut her off to when Mason is on the ground with me hovering over him, hands were thrown and a few curses here and there.
" I told you bro! F**k off! I don't care if she is your f**n girl or f**n hail Mary. Don't talk to her like that. Don't f** with her!" I hiss.
I leave his burst lips and stay a distance before I realize she was staring the whole time.
"Pony, are you… are you-" I begin to make slow steps towards her seeking her approval as I do.
"Stay the f** away from me." That makes me stop dead in my tracks.
Protecting her from this scumbag is what I did wrong? I take glimpses at Mason rubbing his thumb on the corners of his mouth to wipe the blood that was dripping and align his jaws.
"What?" I half whisper not decided if I'm just hurt or had not found my voice.
"You have no right trying to show up and be my knight in shining armor. What is my name Logan?" she stares at my face as if she expects me to actually say it.
"ptfff…" I look her way trying to understand her and her face doesn't show any signs of this being a joke.
"Oh, you are serious. Uuh…" who am I kidding. I have no idea.
"What's my f**king name?"She strides toward me, slow and deliberate, hands tucked slightly behind her back, eyes glistening like she might cry or hit me. Maybe both.
If I didn't know she'd murder me for it, I'd probably be grinning right now. She looked so damn cute all fired up.
"I thought so," she mutters, turning away. One hand goes to the back of her neck as she walks off to help Mason who, of course, hasn't moved a muscle.
F**king Mason.
What is it with this guy. How does he always get away with being the victim and it is clear that he is not? He can't even do a bully job well for God's sake!
I stand for a second still taking in the scene in front of me.
Why did this hurt?
I already knew this part when we started hanging out yet a lump keeps filling my throat and I have to swallow every time. I can see Masons smile curving to form an arrogant smile and I am strangling him in my head but I snap out of it just in time to see them walk away, his body on hers and it disgusts me.
Not knowing how to deal with myself at the moment, I burge into Ms. Johnson's office and sit, saying nothing. She just stares, also doesn't say a word. This woman does know how to intimidate.
"What." I spit, having no idea why I am so mad at her right now.
"Fuck! Say something. Call me out. Don't look at me like I'm just some helpless kid."
She studies me for a while then her mouth forms into a grin.
"Why did I come here?" I should have just lead on with my life when I had the chance to. I brought me into this mess anyway.
"Landon, only you can answer that. I feel like you are growing as a person emotionally, and that is a good thing."
"Of course. I scoff. "Are you serious? Can you please stop being so formal and stop trying to make me feel better tell me the truth damn it! Why am I feeling this way?" I yell and she stays calm as usual and gives me a sympathetic look I want so bad to punch that desk.
"F*****k!!!" I scream.
"No you don't boy, you don't curse in my office." She matches my voice.
"Yea, sorry." I feel like I need her and I do not want to piss her off.
She listens.
She doesn't compare my situation with hers and doesn't give me that look that says you are talking too much, she is the perfect person to be with right now.
"If you tell me what happened maybe we can think about what could have gone wrong." She says more calm than when I cursed out.
"It's not like I feel anything for her." I start.
"She is with my stepbrother and I already know that. I fight a lot with him and to be honest he doesn't like me that much but I'm used to people not liking me."
I pause a minute to see her reaction.
"And yes, I am mad that it did not work out with charity the way it should have but it's okay, it doesn't usually work out for me when dad is involved. Am I broken Ms Johnson?" She won't say it but I know she is thinking it.
She most definitely wants to say it so bad but in order to retain her position she wont.
"Mr Morsey, do you want the truth? I think you are just fine and normal." Her eyes search my face. "Just like any other teenage boy." She smiles softly at me.
Why is she smiling, what is so funny about my situation?
"Don't call me that." I say defeated.
"Logan, what you are is in love." She declares and I cannot help but widen my eyes.
What does she mean in love, I was asking her about my current behavior not my love life, I do not even have one for that matter.
"What?" I am still trying to get the sense of what she just said.
In class all I can think of is her words. Am I in love with Mason or something? Am I gay? No freaking way.
I feel like punching his pretty face all the time. Like right now looking at him only makes me want to disfigure him so bad for having Pony defend him.
Ooh, yea, Pony.
That is who she meant and maybe if I had stayed long enough instead of cursing her out and walking out of her office, I would have…
What is her damn name and why do I keep forgetting it. I'm sure it's Raul. No way. she cursed me out for calling her that.
How can I be in love with her when I cannot even get her name straight. I must say, she is hot, but that is all. I don't think she would like me in that way anyway even if she was not with Mason. I must stay away from them both. That is the best idea if I have to survive whatever this stupid feeling described is.
"You mind?" Rick is invading my personal space and it is making me uncomfortable, especially after the things he said the other day.
I was not one to go around calling kids for sleepover, mainly because I thought they would judge me if they knew dad owns the school. I didn't see it fit to even take my friends to my home. I know they didn't approve of it but at least I thought they understood I would when I was ready.
"I'm sorry dude, I was wasted." he begins to say and I want to stop him right there but that kind of energy is the kind I do not possess at the moment.
Never thought I would ever become a loner, but feels quite comfortable being away from all this drama.
"Yeaah, nah. It's cool, we good bro." He gives that buddy handshake which I do not decline and is joined by Blake. "Ya'll cannot let a man just be can you?" They smile and everyone is back to digging into their plates and talking about… well, boys stuff.