'I came. I actually liked it that I came… twice. Like a needy girlfriend, I just gave in to her like that… We kept going for an hour before she quite literally collapsed into sleep.
I know I'd like her using my ass, hell I knew that about myself before I came into this world. But is she even gonna remember it? Using me like that for the first time? She was zonked out of her mind, came falling into my room mumbling nonsense…! And I let her do all of it…
I can't believe myself… Not even oil or lube, just when she shoved that thing down my throat. Even when it hurt I didn't stop her cause I was that damn desperate? The hell am I doing to myself? Do I just say this was just one night that things turned out like this?
Will this happen again if we don't make up? Do I want this to happen again? Fuck no, but in the heat of the moment for some reason I decide otherwise. And look at her.'
