it was confession day and i had to visit the rev to confess my sins and there i was trying to express my self
we had sex i didn't mean to with him, i was lust i liked him though but choosing abstinence for 2years now has been the best part of me, i let myself in i let myself be deceived.... as we kept to the pace of the conversation it was clear that father would never get to know it was austin because i tried to be careful with my word and try as much not to be too rash with my words
we where finally done with the confession i had to revisit the school library to read some school practice and i stormed into the children theatre where theatre is used to entertain and educate the children/youth by performing dances, songs and melodrama as i flip through the pages i got fascinated by one word the first step in children theatre is understanding the kids and sure understanding is one vital thing and we cant take that away kids/youth think differently and the youth which are the adolescence stage tend to misbehave i quickly sighted another book the twelve days of atlanta as i flip the pages to 69 here it was written Let it go, let him in for some reason i didn't know why this chapter should say so much to me probably to me and charles but never the less i won't let such issues stuck into my head, i will just keep being me as usual and forgot it ever happen.
What matter most is my education what matters is leaving the best life and being on my lane as i ponder more on my book it was time to go home.
On my way back home my phone kept ringing and it was my mom from nigeria constantly calling to hear from me
Hello! Kuti how you dey na omor e don tey your papa sef remember you today say make i call you hear from you, your papa talk say you get suitor wey won marry you baba tunde pikin wey dey stay for Abuja wey be chief advicer to our president them see your picture come like you oh e dey like say na next month you go come back nigeria see them
Me grumbling on the phone on their decision but mummy i no ready to marry person wey i no love, wey i no know and who i no want, that one concern you oh i don tell you my own bye bye.
As the call ended my mind was just fixed on marriage i have never taught about marriage so why does it have to sing in my head especially now or does it mean am getting too old that i be enforced to marry someone i don't know or who i have not seen. with the issues on ground now i have decided to stay on my own let men go their way let men do their thing it does not concern me all they are after is just your body and when your married you turn to being their house keeper.
24hours on the straight since i had my confession but i still yearn to see charles, i still want to feel him and i still need him.
as much as this may sound i pray i get over my lust for charles and concentrate because that the first piority
Sorry this chapter came in late....