Chapter Eight
Jacob's POV
What the fuck was I doing?
Save my Gamma the trouble, my ass!
Your Beta got into your head. Ha! Thank him for me. My wolf laughed and I hated how he could see through my subconscious.
He might be right but there was no way in hell that I would accept this. How could I stoop this low?
"What? I'm not a flirt!" Lucianna burst and my jaw tightened together with my grip on the steering wheel.
She is. She is! My head screamed.
You sound to be persuading yourself hard there, my wolf laughed again. He sure was enjoying this!
I growled at him in my head, but my tension made me snarled loudly and it reached my mate's ears.
Lucianna gasped at the back of the car and I froze. Did I scare her? Fuck!
"D-Did you just…" her voice is low, shaky, and I don't know why but panic is starting to build in my chest.
What? Panic?
No. No.
I cleared my throat to swallow a huge lump I feel like stuck in it. Why would I care if I scared her or whatever? This shows just how weak she really was, right? I only snarled, not even directing it to her and yet--
Fuck. Why was she not continuing her words?
Sighing, I took a glimpse of her in the rear-view mirror. Her hands are crossed in her chest, like hugging her body while her eyes were looking at the window. I could see a faint redness on her cheeks, was she feeling hot? That dress looked chilling though.
Suddenly, the warmth of her skin crosses my mind. That bareback dress was dangerous, I almost lose my cool earlier.
I sighed again, feeling my member reacting at the replay that going on in my head. Her scent mixed with mine, her soft and silky skin, ugh, it was addicting enough without the need of a bond between us.
The silence was killing me. What was going on in her head? I couldn't see any emotion from her shadow either, it was frustrating.
Oh, fuck. I've been thinking nothing but her! This was not good. I don't want her to be my mate, but there was no escaping this, shit--
"Um, a-are we there yet?" she break the silence and I almost jumped. Fucking hell, what was happening to me?
Clearing my throat, "Yeah." I said shortly, trying my best not to breath because the scent of her mouth is lingering inside this closed car. Sweet, tangling. Not to mention the smell of her body that has been bothering my senses since I don't remember when.
I needed to get her to my house quickly. This fucking distance was killing my control and patience. I was not weak to give in to this mate bond, no.
I stepped on the gas and I heard her gasp behind me. Was that too fast?
Fuck, stop caring about her thinking and feeling, Jacob!
Lucianna's POV
I swear I felt my skin trembled from the way he snarled at me. I guess he hated it when someone opposes his thinking, huh?
But I was not a flirt!
But again, I don't want to do things that he doesn't like. If he looks for obedience in a woman, I could be just that, right?
Though its far from who I am. Hah! Nevermind!
I sighed.
I couldn't mess this up, I had been waiting to find my mate and I promised to myself that I would do everything to be a perfect partner. If he thinks I was a flirt, then I would just need to prove I was not.
Where did he got those things, I wonder? First, he accused me for being weak. Second, I was a flirt. Was I giving such impressions that he sees me that way?
I had not talked to any guy here since I met him, right? Well, his Gamma, but did I flirt with Harley? I didn't.
Maybe Jacob was a jealous type? Possessive? Maybe he doesn't want me to get close to any guy?
But he was the one who sent Harley to send me to his home.
Sigh. This was frustrating.
Finally, we made a stop and I looked outside the window. His house was not that far from the Hall but we passed through a lot of trees so I was guessing its in the midst of the forest.
I looked at Jacob's back and noticed he was not getting out of the car. Should I wait for him to open the door for me or not?
Okay, Lucianna. Don't be a princess, just go out of the car and--
My thoughts halted when the door suddenly open wide and Jacob was standing outside, holding it for me.
Did he just used his inhuman speed just to open the car door?
I looked up to his face and he was not meeting my eyes, he was looking somewhere, anywhere, but not to me.
He looked annoyed and my lips are still parted from being shock.
"What are you waiting for?" he said, rolling his eyes and looking at me. "Get out of the damned car."
I pouted from how he sounded rude, hoping out of the car quickly. And here I was thinking that he looked cute and sweet for what he did.
"I need to go back to the Hall. I will just show you to your room." he said as he closed the car door and started walking to the house.
"You mean, 'our' room, right?" I asked without thinking as I followed him.
I immediately realized what I just said when Jacob paused, stopped walking and turned to look at me with squinted eyes.
My eyes were wide and I couldn't blink as I try to ease the atmosphere by laughing. And my fucking laugh came out awkwardly.
Damn it!
He just looked at me with a frown and I prayed hard to melt right here, right now!
I cleared my throat and looked away from his eyes, trying to distract him. "Oh! What a beautiful house!" I said, taking a step closer to the entrance. "It's not that big, I won't have a hard time cleaning thi-"
My body felt like flying and everything happened so quickly. Jacob was grabbing my waist with both of his hands, he pulled me up and my feet left the ground! As if I weigh like a feather, he held me until we reached the inside of his house.
All of his move was fast that I didn't had the time to blink!
The sole of the heels I was wearing touched on the marbled floor the same time the door shut loudly.
Jacob pushed me hard to the closed door and I thought my back will slam hard on the hard wood but his arms were snaked on my back, enough for support.
We were so close to each other that my breathe hitched. The warmth of his body immediately invaded mine, my chest flat on his, and I groaned when he pushed himself even closer to my body.
Like he wanted to be too close that even a thread wouldn't slid between us.
I was confused by why he acted this way but all I could think of was how my heart beat loudly as my core reacted from our position.
"Wha-"
My words were cut and I jumped when his other arm slammed on the door, just beside my head. His face was so close, too close to mine.
I couldn't breathe. Damn, our closeness was enough to stop me from breathing but the way he looked at me with those eyes, made it harder.
"I don't want you." he growled inwardly as he said those words in a rough voice.
My eyes widened and I felt something stingy in my chest--like hundreds of needles were poking in my heart.
He doesn't want me?
Why?
"Why?" I voiced out that question in my head.
Jacob growled again, grinding his body closer to me, and I felt like I was flattened as I was grounded between him and the door.
"I don't want you. I fucking don't want you."
My lips was trembling as it parted, ready to ask, ready to say a word, but no voice came out of my mouth.
All I want was a mate.
All I want was a family.
So why am I hearing him say this? Rejection was not an option to the mate bond, but it still hurts to think that my fated one were saying these things.
I'm dying!!! my wolf crawled and cried inside me. I want to crawl and cry, too, but I was out of my mind right now.
"I don't--" Jacob didn't continue his words and his next move made my eyes pop out of its socket!
"Mmft!"
His lips slammed on mine in a sudden, claiming my lips for a rough kiss!
Jacob was kissing me! My mate was fucking kissing me in a hard way but what I felt was the electrifying sensation that comes to me the moment his lips touched mine!
I moaned when his tongue found its way inside my mouth and I heard Jacob groaned loudly, pushing himself closer to me!
His hand on my back grabbed on my waist, gripping on my skin tightly while the other wend on my nape, tilting my head to the side for easy access to my lips!
Oh, damn, this feels so good!
The kiss was getting deeper, rougher, sweeter and all I could think was to ask for more! I may be a hypocrite to love his kiss just when he told me he doesn't want me-- but I couldn't fool myself! I wanted this! I longed for this! This was my first kiss!
Our lips parted for a gasp of breath but only for a second because he continued kissing me again. My hands travelled on its own, embracing his neck, looking for support because my knees started to lose its bone.
Oh, God! Oh, God!
Jacob suddenly pulled me up and on instinct, I jumped on his torso and crossed my legs on his body. He carried me with such formidable strength and I hold onto him more.
"Fuck." he whispered when his lips left mine but found its way to my neck, sucking on my skin hungrily! I felt the same wanting… I do! I want more!
My back felt the cold glass table when Jacob laid me there, hovering over me. I felt him grind his hips, and I moaned from the sensation that I felt!
He was hard! Rock hard! And I could feel how wet I was inside my underwear!
The way he grind his hips makes indirect contact of his manhood to my wetness. I couldn't help but moan louder each time his movement hit a spot where it makes me tremble from the pleasure.
Even with clothes on, our lower parts feels so hot, that its warmth were exiting the fabric.
Jacob cursed again, and again, pushing his manhood more to my sensitive area before pulling himself away from me.
I was huffing, loss of breath, as I sat up and looked at him with hooded eyes.
What happened?
"W-Why did you stop?" I said, catching my breath.
He turned around, brushed his hands on his hair, and groaned loudly like he was in pain.
What did I do? Did I tugged on his hair too much? Did I hurt him?
I was almost out of energy from the pleasure he brought so, I couldn't have hurt him, right?
Jacob turned to look at me, frowning as he wander his eyes on my body.
The hem of my long dress was curled up to my mid-thigh, exposing too much of my skin. My breast was almost popping out as my tube top hangs just in the middle part of it, making it looked more bigger than it already was.
I bit my lip as I saw hesitation in the eyes of my mate.
He couldn't continue, I could tell.
I hurried and fixed my dress, standing up and pulling myself away from the glass table he laid me in.
I knew I had to be the perfect partner but I couldn't held my anger from this moment. I was too into it and he fucking made me into it.
Now, he has to stop? Just great.
I crossed my arms in front of me, took a deep breath and slowly exhaled quietly.
"That was… something." I chuckled sarcastically, trying to hide my annoyance. "From someone who don't want me as his mate, your actions does not match your words."
I was really angry, you fucker! Why don't you just come at me and devour me whole! I'd been waiting for this all my life!
Jacob closed his eyes tightly, then he looked at me with that disgusted, regretful eyes which almost made me lose my cool.
"Don't get ahead of yourself." he smirked. He took a step forward to me and my arms dropped on my side quickly. "That doesn't mean a thing."
My eyes widened. What?
I chuckled and shook my head. What were you saying, mate?
"Really?" I arched a brow at him and his jaw clenched from my tone and behaviour. "If you say so." I said, crossing my arms again.
Jacob parted his lip to speak but didn't, instead, he bit his lower lip before licking it. I think he does that absentmindedly but fuck, how sexy that move looked!
"So, where is my room? From how you 'don't want me', I get it that you want to be separated with me all the time." I looked around his house.
I don't want to back down but there were still some aftershock feeling left to me from that 'intimacy' thing we shared. So since I knew we wouldn't be continuing, I wanted to hid anywhere to cover the shame I felt inside.
His house does not have a second floor but wide and modern. I was guessing he has enough room from how huge the space was.
"Turn a right on that hallway. Your room is the first door on the left." he said in a low voice.
"Okay."
I started to walk away from him, my feet felt heavy from each step and I could feel his eyes on my back.
"I won't be coming tonight so don't wait and rest."
I stopped and turned to him.
What?
"You have work this late at night?" my voice didn't hide the disappointment as I said that.
Yes, I was annoyed but it does not mean I don't want him near me!
I don't care if he tell himself that he hated me, doesn't want me or rejected me but I would lose this if I was not with him! No matter what he think, I was up to seduce him until he gave in!
"You can say that." he said, crossing his arms this time. He looked manly but rude right now.
I arched my brow. Was he playing games?
"What will you work on?" I pry. I wanted to know because I was feeling suspicious from all of this.
Tonight was the Mapping Ball. There was no work for the Alpha of the pack because as far as I knew, aside from being too late to work, there was a pack tradition that was occurring which meant no work for him.
"Hmm. I'm going to work on matching my actions with my words." he smirked.
I was baffled but Jacob turned around and starting walking out of the door.
What the heck does he meant?
Argh! I couldn't believe I was in this situation! My head was still after the fact that he said he doesn't want me but kissed me savagely after! Was he out of his mind? Maybe he has some kind of mental condition?
Ugh! I don't know anymore! Where is that fucking room?
I found my room and it was pretty spacious. The bed also looked comfortable but big. I don't want to lay on such huge bed or be in a spacious room if I got to be the only one inside it.
Yeah, right. Like I got a choice.
Or maybe I have? I would ask for a smaller bed tomorrow and bear with this for tonight.
Since I'd become an orphan, I started to love narrow and cramped places. It helped me think less that I was alone, and gave me a good sleep.
Well, I guess I wouldn't have that good sleep tonight, huh? I was sure my head would be filled with questions and replay about Jacob and what we shared together.
Together.
Fucker. How dare he baffle me like this?!
I sighed and took off my dress, then wrapping my body on a towel I saw above the bed.
The room looked like it was prepped for a guest. Or did he prepared this for me? I knew male wolves were aware if they will meet their mate, maybe he did?
So, does that mean he hated me even before knowing me since he separated our rooms? Ugh, my mind was about to burst.
I decided to look on the closet and wander a little more.
"Whoa."
The closet was full of clothes! Was this my size?
I grabbed one pair and wow! It was my size! But how did he knew my size? Oh my, was these clothes belonged to his woman? Did he had any woman? It was not new for male wolves to have a bitch to entertain them before meeting their mate, right?
Now, this dresses looked eww-y for me.
I threw the clothes back inside the closet with a disgusted face. I would never wear somebody else's clothing! Better be wrap in a towel all night than wear those.
I looked around the room again and sighed.
Damn it. This space looks scary.
I sighed again. I should take a bath.
The cold shower didn't ease my thoughts at all. I came out of the bathroom, sighing repeatedly. I couldn't stop thinking about Jacob! And I was tired of the thoughts about him! Ugh!
Not entirely tired, I would still think about him tomorrow but right now, I don't want to!
He was so confusing and frustrating! I couldn't understand him at all!
I was about to sat on the bed when suddenly, I felt an unfamiliar pain in my chest.
"Ah!" I held on to my chest, shocked from the sudden feeling, but it was gone instantly.
"What was that?" I mumbled, rubbing on my chest.
I frowned and my mind was troubled from what had happened. It was like my heart was pinched hard by someone and then let it go.
The heck?
"Ugh!"
My chest hurt again and this time, my arms and legs felt like someone punched on them hard.
Fuck, what was happening to me!
I screamed my pain when I felt it again, two times painful from the previous one!
Bruises started to be visible in the skin on my arm and leg. My eyes are palpitating from the pain and my heart feels like it was being clenched tight and hard.
Mate! My wolf cries in pain, too. What was happening to us? Are we cursed?!
Mate!
The moment my wolf screamed the second time, an image of Jacob, fucking someone in what seems like an office, flashed on my head.
Cheating! My wolf cried again and another wave of pain washed through me.
Jacob was fucking another woman! He met me, he met his mate then why?!
Tears started to pool on my eyes as I felt like being punched non-stop on the same spots.
I was hurt. I was confused. I was in pain.
Why? Why was this happening? How could he do this to me?
All I wanted was to meet my mate. To have someone I could be with, to have a family, so why?
"Ahhhhhhhh!"