My back crashes against the hard wall, my spine exploding in pain. I force myself to look up, then a shoe gets lamed into my stomach so hard I throw up.
"Hahahahaha God, look how pathetic he looks like a damn mutt."
Reaching up, I hold onto a pendant I had since birth as I try to stay awake and not pass out.
"100% look how desperately he's holding onto the damn piece of junk."
Looking up, I see my whole classroom looking down at me on the floor, their eyes full of disgust and hatred, all because of the lies of my younger brother, or the true son of the summers.
Then I hear the soft tapping of shoes hitting the floor like death tolls, then the crowd opens up, spreading apart, whispering.
"Omg, look how cute he is, so much better than this ugly bully who he even called his brother."
"Yeah, even as a man, he looks really good."
Felix jumps in with a cute pleading tone that makes even the most straight men soften, "calm down, guys, please don't bully my big brother, I still love him."
He was the master at making everyone see him as the poor victim. It wasn't always like this. He was so kind, not that we were swapped at birth. The hospital rushed me, and he was swapped because a nurse was rushing.
The true son fell in love with a family in the slums with the winters, and I with the coles.
They never abused him, but he was bullied by other kids for looking feminine, having pale skin, long, silky hair, soft eyes, and being perfect ammunition for kids.
Even after growing up, it got worse; they would touch him and make lewd jokes to his expense.
My life was nearly perfect. I had good friends. I would work out 3 times a week, and I was the boxing champ of my school.
When we found out it was an ancestry day, I was bored and went, and when it came back, I was 0% that they found him quick after when he came back, he was small and frail.
Mother cried, sis and dad were the most stable out of us all, and I did not hate him. Why would I take the love from him for years? I was thinking of leaving, but Felix grabbed my arm to stop me and looked me in the eyes.
His eyes were teary, "Don't leave, big brother, we can all be a big happy family." I saw his face and was fooled and stayed.
It was fine. I helped him work out. He got up to 180 of lean muscle, a decent 4 pack, and okay muscles. I showed him some ways to pin people, even if they're stronger and bigger, with pressure points.
But it started getting weird when we went to the hot spring. He would sit right next to me, leaning on my shoulder for dinner, touching my thigh each time I gave him the benefit of the doubt.
Maybe touching was his love of language, but I was blinded by his innocent act to see what he wanted.
One, as I was at my computer, he walked up behind me, "big bro…" Turning around, I smiled at him "Hey Felix, what's up?"
He looked down like he had just stolen a candy bar. "I-i need to tell you something."
With shocking speed, he wraps his arms around my neck and kisses me, his grip strength staggering even though I've been training for my whole life.
When I pushed him off, I tasted something bitter, but I was shocked and wanted to make excuses for him, maybe he tripped. It was a mistake. I was shocked.
His hands behind his back, "I always had a crush on you, big bro. I saw you on TV and fell in love at first sight."
I didn't know what to say; my brain was just too in shock to think. When my brain rebooted, I grabbed his collar. "FELIX, WE ARE BROTHERS EVEN IF WE ARE NOT BLOOD, IT'S WRONG WE CAN NEVER BE A THING!"
This is one of the first times I ever yelled at him. As I stood to take him back to his room, I started to get hot and dizzy.
"Felix wh-what did you do?" its okay big brother im going to take good care of you"
I could feel it all seconds bleed into hours it didn't hurt. It made me feel dirty, used as if I was just some toy to be used and disposed of like a rag after cleaning the toilet.
After a while I passed out when I woke Felix was right next to me with a face of bliss. I got my world crumbling then I saw them in a comment feed.
[is the second male lead on pitiful its sad to think how he will end up as his brothers meat Dildo at the end]
[come on its a dark romance you knew what you were getting into when you bought it]
[but is this not like child abuse matrial thare still 16]
[dont give me that same person who was reading "my older brothers daughter is a temptress" when that 30 year old man who knew her since she was 12 grew a crush on her even if they were adults when it happened it's still gross]
That's when I learned my life was that of a BL novel character that was nothing more than eye candy to women who wanted to see mindless man on man action. I learned how Felix would imprison me
get mom dad and sis to think i abandon them mom and dad would get into a crash sell sis to her crazy female stalker and slowly make me into his toy.
I couldn't tell anybody who would believe their whole life was a lie so I just started to distance myself from him.
When he wanted to go to the hot springs I said no. When he wanted to work out I denied him that when he started his act he hired someone that looked 80% like me. He was only slightly shorter and had green eyes.
But all they did was give him eye contacts and height boosting shoes. He was not dumb he paid him in crypto or paid in cash by taking out a small amount to pay him.
They didn't want to believe it but the videos showed someone who looked like me doing it.
I couldn't even defend myself. The evidence was too solid that Felix knew my schedule. He knew all the times I was alone I was trapped. My mom would cry, dad would scold and sis would stare and Felix would hide behind them.
Then the school heard that friends abandoned me. The ones who had crushes on me cursed me even though my childhood best friend had to leave from harassment.
I was alone for the past 3 years when I came back to the present Felix was crouched in front of me and stretched out. "Come on big bro please this is breaking my heart"
My fits were in balls as I slapped his hand away "to hell with you and your forgiveness!"
Then a kick to my head "Felix gave you an out and this is how you treat him you need to learn your place!" Then punches and kicks ran down. I saw Felix being led away, eyes and ears covered.
It felt like hours before everyone slowly left. I just lay there a shell of who I once was.
Then I stood and started walking . Alfred and Claire haven't given me money in weeks. Only the small amount I found off the street my friend from Europe and Felix game kept me fed.
Plus it was late and no taxi would take me.
When I got home a gold ash tray was thrown at my head "WHARE THE HELL WERE YOU WE WERE WOORIED SICK!"
I dont even respond what would i say i was being bullied by classmates they would just think my lying for attention.
His voice was loud "YOU DAMN BRAT ALWAYS RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS CAUSE YOUR JUST A BULLY"
Returning to my room I start packing my clothes and things I bought with my own money. After they cut my cards off I grabbed my birth certificate and social security card.
I was so tired of this but then i heard soft foot steps i smelt is soft cinnamon "older brother why must you be so difficult just give in to me whats the point in all this fighting if your just going to lose"
He walked behind me and wrapped his hands around my waist and it made me sick so I pushed him off. He screamed out loud and hit my desk.
His head splits open and starts to bleed then mom dad and sis come in mom covers her mouth rushes over holding him close "my poor baby"
Dad looks at me with pure rage "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU KNOW WHAT IM DONE WITH THIS GUARDS TAKE HIM TO THE COLD ROOM!!!"
My eyes bulge as two big guards grabs me the cold room was a storage closet but they turned it into a torture chamber for me.
They dragged me in and tied me to a thick metal rod in the center and I could hear the conversation between dad and the butler James. "Don't kill him just make it hurt and don't hold back because he needs to learn there are consequences.
I was engaged and I just looked at them. Mom and dad don't even look back as they leave and sis only stares at me with revulsion as she leads Felix out.
James walks over and pours bone chilling ice water over me i shiver bucket after bucket after bucket my body shaking so hard my bones felt like glass.
After a while it stopped. My head slumps forward, breathing heavily before a splitting pain spreads across my back. I force my head up. James has a whip blade tip meant to slice open skin. James was skilled at lots of things.
Strike after strike pain exploded over my back. I let out pained whimpers, my skin splitting open. I couldn't take it and passed out but I couldn't even rest.
Before I was woken up by burning hot salt water he untied me and slammed my hands out straight before driving thin syringes under my nail beds and injecting pure salt water my eyes bulged.
Hours pass and I could groan in pain then I just pass out.
Falling into a deep void in the distance I saw 5 people. They were so far away that they said nothing and did nothing. Their eyes were different when glowing blue, blood red, green, pink and the guy in the middle glowing red eyes.
Before I could even think I awoke breathing heavy my body feeling like needles i was hooked to a iv drip mom dad sis and felix.
My dad looks at me with slight regret "the doctor said you should recover soon"
I didn't have the energy to argue. I was too tired to even care. I just laid there breathing my eyes closed and then I heard my sister's voice "he's just fishing for sympathy dont apologize Felix needed stitches."
Fleix the actor started his play "it's all my fault im so sorry everyone if i was never born Blake would never have ended up like this."
Fleix started crying and ran out the door dad and sis rushed after him mom got up and stopped "we will come back to check on you" she left that was the last day i saw them.
Two months passed until December. I saw them papering Felix all this time. It was too busy for me so when I got home no one was there. I went to my room and nothing was moved, a light layer of dust.
After grabbing my backpack i head for the door then they come back talking smiling but they all stopped when they saw me mom spoke up first "oh blake you should have called us we would have picked you up"
Dad took one look at the backpack strap and lost it "HOW CHILDISH CAN YOU BE RUNNING AWAY BECAUSE WE PUNISHED YOU"
I just couldnt anymore i was just done so i walked past them "YOU LEAVE TO DAY YOUR NO LONGER MY SON"
Stopping for a moment, I continued walking "I never was" then I left. I could hear their screaming. I just blocked it out and left.
Stepping into the cold my body was freezing because I did take a jacket but it was -4 it was so cold but i would rather freeze then live in that house
[what's going on, why is he leaving?]
[i don't know this wasn't in the original]
[he doesn't look well i hope he will be ok]
I continue moving as I fall to my knees as I fall to the ground snow covering my body then I feel warm. Before I passed out I heard the crunching of snow and a woman's voice.
"Found him"
End of chapter 1