Sometimes later,
Sofie woke with a gasp, her body jolting upright as her eyes flew open, her heart hammering wildly in her chest like a caged animal trying to escape.
She took a moment to orient herself, her breath coming in short, sharp gasps as she stared at the familiar sight of her bedroom ceiling, the cold stone walls, and the heavy wooden furniture that filled the room.
The air was thick with the scent of old parchment and the faint, underlying musk of her own sweat, a testament to the intensity of her emotions.
'Why am I so afraid?' she wondered, her mind racing as she tried to make sense of the turmoil within her. 'My heart feels like it's going to burst out of my chest. Is this what fear feels like? This overwhelming, all-consuming sensation that threatens to drown me?'
She took a deep, shuddering breath, trying to calm herself, to regain control of her errant emotions.
Her gaze drifted around the room, taking in the details as if seeing them for the first time.
The tapestries that hung on the walls, depicting her family's glorious battles and victorious conquests, the suit of armor that stood sentinel in the corner, the heavy wooden desk where she poured over strategies and plans.
It was a room fit for a future leader, a testament to her ambitions and her power. Yet, in that moment, she felt small and insignificant, a mere pawn in her father's grand game.
'It's not that I am afraid of Father,' she told herself, trying to find some semblance of comfort in her thoughts.
'Everyone is afraid of him. Even Grandpa dares not to go against him. It's only natural to feel this way.' She repeated the words in her mind, a mantra to soothe her frazzled nerves, but the truth of it rang hollow in her ears.
She swung her legs over the side of the bed, her feet touching the cold stone floor, the roughness of it grounding her, bringing her back to the present.
She took another long, deep breath, trying to steady herself, to regain the iron control she was known for. 'I was not this rash before,' she thought, her brow furrowing in concentration as she tried to unravel the tangle of her emotions.
'Otherwise, how could I have become the strongest and smartest of all Father's children? If I keep making these types of minor mistakes they will accumulate like rolling snow ball and not long after I will lose my position of heir of family.'
She thought 'I should first give the report I prepared in the south to father.'
She started conflicting with herself, Sofie was strange girl who used to talk with self.
She started feeling stressed and different memories of masturbating when stressed appeared in her mind.
She started craving for it, the hit that makes her feel good.
Urge was taking control of her body and her rational thinking and destrcutive mana potion worked as catalyst making her crave more.
She started conflicting with herself one was her rational mind and another was emotional mind.
'How about masturbating first, I have been holding in for so long but Lucian is not here and my desire were not satisfied, it will only take five minutes, father can wait right? It makes sense.'
'It is not that he has asked for report, so why should I hand it over, yes it makes sense. Yes, I can do this just today from tomorrow I will stop masturbating, yes, I swear on my family honor. From tomorrow onwards I will solely focus on training and becoming strong wizard.'
Ahhh.. my lord harder, yesss!!!
So good!! my lord.. pls my lord moreee!! Ahhhhh!!
The sound of a many girls moaning could be heard by Sofie coming from her brother room
Sofie mind was in chaos but when she heard loud moans of her brother concubines her lust increased even more and she finally gave into her desires.
It was the final straw that allowed emotional mind to win and she gave into her desires.
Sometimes the environment decided what action one would take.
She started taking her clothes off and feeling her body. Feeling her chest and small moan escaped her mouth 'Ahhh..'
Closing her eyes,
She imagined Lucian, his body bare and on display for her, his pale skin flushed with desire, his blue eyes dark with need.
She imagined running her hands over his chest, feeling the firm muscle beneath her fingers, the way his breath would hitch as she trailed kisses down his neck, his collarbone, his sternum.
She imagined the taste of him, the feel of him, the sound of his moans as she took him in her mouth, as she brought him to the brink of ecstasy and back again, toying with him, teasing him, until he was a quivering mess of need and desire.
She imagined him beneath her, his hands gripping her hips as she rode him, his body moving in sync with hers, their sweat-slick skin sliding together in a rhythm as old as time.
She imagined the feel of him inside her, filling her, completing her, the way his eyes would roll back in his head as she clenched around him, milking him for all he was worth.
A soft moan escaped her lips as she lost herself in the fantasy, her body responding to the mental stimulation, her nipples hardening, her sex throbbing with need and finally she hit the climax and she fell into the cycle of lust.
After sometime,
She took a bath and wore clean clothes and thought, 'I must have him,' she thought, her resolve hardening. 'I will have him, no matter the cost. At first, I had no purpose in life but now my only purpose is to have Lucian.'
Sofie thought 'What is the point of becoming stronger wizard? If I can't even have something I like, I worked hard every day, it was painful and not only that I had to bear huge pressure that my siblings will surpass me, I couldn't even get a sleep.'
'But now, Father wants me to become even stronger, why? What is the point of becoming stronger? I want to live in bliss with Lucian as my only love and desire and leave a life like how normal noble do in south.'
'There life is so fun and desireful, I can't help but become jealous, Imagine When I wake up there will be Lucian beside my bed and starting my morning by kissing him then bathing together with him, eating together then sleeping in his lap in green garden. Lucian and me in small villa living happily.'
Sofie was locked in monologue talking with herself 'What about our goals and ambitions Sofie? My ambitions and goals I had them when I was young now, I don't wish to pursue them because to pursue my goals I have to continuously live on edge of life and work harder but what will I get at the end? Death!'
'So instead of working harder till my end of life just to drop death, I should just enjoy my life with wealth and Lucian that is all I need. Pfft hahah I was so naive when I young, my goals were sky high, haha what a ridiculous goal I had What was it? oh yes trying to unify the continent, hahahaha. What a foolish and naive girl I was.'
She thought 'Ok imagine I completed my goal and unified the continent but can I rule the whole continent alone? No I can't I have to create many vessel states and hand them over to my trusted servants and managing the continent will be even more difficult then unifying it.'
She took a long breath and said "And eventually I will die pitifully managing the continent instead of that I should just goto where Lucian is and kidnap him."
she was locked in her fantasies.
As people grow up, they lose their ambitions and give into desire, as for it is right or wrong that is not my work, as a narrator I will just narrate the tale.
Nothing was wrong with this girl, it was the power of destructive mana potion she consumed, this mana potion caused ones to become more lustful and make people unable to control their sexual desires and top of that she already lusted after Lucian it was same as adding fuel to fire.
Oh wait, you don't know who I am? Oh, I guess this is my first appearance in story, I can't believe the writer introduced me so late in the story, alas it is also good that I am the first one being introduced,
Hello readers!! and fuck you Nature and Space, haha this old man is the one who was first introduced in the story, haha go cry losers.
Ahem, I am sorry, I was just too excited, let me formally introduce myself.
I am Time, the narrator of this story. This narrative transcends mere war, conflict, and peace; it is a quest to know the self."
I paused, drawing in a breath that seemed to ripple through the fabric of existence itself. "I have witnessed this story unfold countless times. I am the protagonist, the antagonist, the part of every soul who lived or died in this story.
Every heartbeat, every whisper of fate is entwined with me. No other can narrate this story, for I have not only observed it; I have inhabited it, feeling the joy of triumph and the weight of despair. I have smiled when the world rejoiced and wept when shadows fell.
I am the seed of all beginnings and the ending of every ending. All that was, is, or will be is known by my gaze. I am the all-knowing deity, and alongside the infinite expanse of Space and the wild pulse of Nature.
We the three pillars govern the realms of existence. Now let's continue the story.
She stood up, her body still shaking slightly, and made her way to the large window that overlooked the courtyard. The glass was cold against her forehead as she leaned against it, her breath fogging up the surface as she looked out at the bustling scene below.
Guards trained, servants hurried about their tasks, and beyond the high walls, she could see the distant peaks of the Laru mountains, their tips capped with snow even in the height of summer.
She took a deep breath, steeling herself for what was to come, and made her way to her father's study, her steps slow and measured, her body trembling with a mix of fear and anticipation.
Ahem, I am Nature and what Time doesn't know is I was introduced in chapter 3 hahaha..