All those things, i can see glimpses of them,
Mother's eyes filled with rage
The dark and empty room ; i can see it, like a long past memories
Danny hugged me while i cried softly,
Why do i have to live like this? Why is my life like this, so many things filled my mind .
It seems as though, all those feelings i've never showed in my entire life swarms out in this moment.
"Ophelia, close your eyes" , Carson said.
I don't want him to see everything, he's suffering so much already.
What about me? This might be the first time I've felt pain,
I don't want to remember anything at all, i just want to forget everything and enjoy this life i have, right now.
My brothers comfort me,
My life . ...it's miserable, but at the same time, I'm also lucky to have my brothers.
All this time, they have been waiting for me,
All the things they did, was for me.
Unfair life, twisted fate, this are not only meant for humans,
I guess.
But I've learned so much more from those misfortunes.
Then,i came to the conclusion
Why i can't feel anything in that village,my abilities, even though i was born again, my abilities still worked , but not to the fullest.
I was never happy in that village,but i felt so much love in here,
No matter what, the only fact is that i don't want my past lives, i just want to live this moment.
When unfortunate things kept happening in life,
Humans change... the same goes for vampires, i guess
My brothers wanted me alive ,
That they even killed our parents
Such twisted life.
Life never grants us what we wished for.
Our paths never , are made to be easy ;
But whether or not we keep on going, is up to us.
We made decisions for ourselves,
We, sometimes keep making mistakes,
It's okay to start all over, it's okay to make mistakes.
But there are some mistakes that can't be forgiven.
Mother killing me is one example for that.
Am i wrong?
My second mother wasn't different much at all.
Days passed, for about 3 months, we lived together happily,
I spend all my times with my brothers,
I joined them hunting humans, but I've never killed one;
There was never a time, we fight, or gets angryangry at each other,
They were always caring.
Even when i make mistakes,
They simply correct it for me, I've changed so much too.
We sometimes hang out in the garden,
Sometimes we watched the full moon, lunar eclipse.
But , the sun , they're aware of it.
That's when Carson's ability comes handy,
The shield protects them all.
Rumors had it said that this mansion has been empty for hundreds of years,
It wasn't, Lorris casted a spell to make it looked like an empty mansion,
That's why, when people came, but rarely,
They hear voices and sounds made by my brothers which they thought was ghost.
Sometimes they killed them,
And those people's bodies were never found.
I was too happy that
I've never thought, I'd be far away from them again.
I've never thought we'd be seperated again.
One late afternoon,
I was wandering around the garden,
I was enjoying too much that I've gone too far,
But when I tried to go back,
Far away from me, was a tombstone, two of them.
Something feels off.
I feel like I'm hearing voices,
As if that voice is telling me to approach the grave.
I don't know why but slowly, i walk towards the grave,
I stand still in front of it,
Then, i touched the grave and suddenly
Cold winds were blowing , it's getting dark.
I looked back.
And realize i was too far away from the garden,
I know i should've wait for Danny or Ophelia,
We always go together.
But , something keeps me from waiting them.
So, i left without them.
Deep inside,
I know i have to go back, i know something's wrong.
I can feel it inside me.
But somehow, i was like possessed
I keep staying
I keep touching the grave .
I've never go this far,
The further i go, the more i feel lonely
That's why i only hang out in the garden with my brothers,
I keep telling myself inside;
I need to go back home
But, this graves
These two graves, kept me from going back.
I feel like it's alive, and it doesn't want me to go back,
The longer i stay, the more i was afraid,
But i can't leave.
I wanted to leave, but something
There's something in here that wants me to stay.
My mind was clearly wide awake .
But deep inside, i was not myself.
Slowly, the air was getting thicker,
Everything around me was becoming dull and gloomy,
I became weak,
My body feels so heavy, i fell down on my knees,
At this rate, i might pass out,
I feel dizzy, i can't think straight, but at last,
I heard Danny calling me,
"Dorothy! Stand up, and get back! "
I turned my head slowly and saw both of them running towards me, i could see Ophelia's tears,
But i can't talk, i just keep saying in my mind
" I don't know what's happening.... I can't stand, i can't feel my body. . .. "
Ophelia was crying so much, he screamed at the top of his lungs, but the distance between us was too long that they couldn't reach me.
And that was the last thing i saw, then,everything went black.