I slowly opened my eyes,
My body was so heavy,
I feel like i was knocked out for many days,
I get up, i blinked my eyes to have a better look at myself,
My wounds, they were very bad .
I looked around me,
No!! it can't be, this can't be real, why?? just why???
I'm back, beside the river, under the big tree.
I might have been severely injured, with all these blood and wounds,
Was it a dream?
No, i don't want that to be a dream , i started crying.
I was so hopeless,
I saw the river filled with blood, then i had some flashbacks,
The river was just the same as i saw last time,
When i saw that man drowning,
How could it possibly be?
How can it still be the same, how are my wounds still the same when Danny healed me already,
No, i can't accept these,
With all my strength, i stand up and tried to jump into the river.
But then, mother came and dragged me away from the river.
My only hope of getting back was to jump into the river,
But i have no strength to fight back,
I just keep on crying and crying,
"Do you know what you've done? "
She was very angry, i don't even dare to look at her eyes.
She take out a stick, and started beating me up.
This isn't the first time,
I used to endure it without showing no emotions,
But now, i can't,
I cried, i screamed,i begged for mercy,
But, but, who is this? she cannot be my mother,
She showed no mercy .
Every part of my body was covered with blood,
It hurts so much that i just want to die,
People were passing by, they were staring at me.
Some were laughing.
I even saw our landlord with his wife, they looked like they were enjoying the show.
Seeing me screaming in pain makes them happy.
Everyone was enjoying.
Mother didn't stop,until i feel no pain.
And at last, i passed out, again,
Everything goes black.
When i opened my eyes, i was tied up inside a prison,
Why didn't she just kill me?
If i had died, i won't have to suffer anymore,
I just want to die!
Every part of my body was shaking when i heard someone coming,
It was mother, she looked at my eyes and said
"I would like to see you suffering more, but,
none, i can do... You know what's gonna happen? You'll be killed after 7 days" She laughed.
She walked away but stopped and looked back at me.
"Only if you could survive for 7 days inside, you're not a human so,they won't let you die so easily"
then she leaves.
I cried...so much, it hurts and hurts, my brothers, where are they??
So , i am to be tortured for 7 days,
And if i manage to survive for 7 days,
After that, i shall be killed in front of all the villagers, a public execution,
"I wish i could just die right here", i thought.
I just lay down hopelessly, my brothers came into my mind.
Though i have no strength to cry anymore,
Tears came out from my eyes.
Was that really a dream?
If it was, then that would be the strangest dream ever.
That it even changed me.
For 3 days, i was beaten up,
I was given food only to barely survive, even when i tried to starve myself to death, they'd forced the food on me,
There were times, i hallucinate .
Most of the times i cried, i lost all hope.
Sometimes i saw my brothers,sometimes that awful day, That day I saw Ophelia crying when he was running towards me with Danny.
That can't possibly be a dream!
If this really is my last moment,
I'm sad that i haven't got to say goodbye,
I wish i could see them once more before i die.
Could this really be the end?
On the 4th day, they exposed me to the sun,for the first time since i got back.
They tied me up on a big log.
My wounds were so severe,
They tied me up too tight that it hurts every part of my body.
My wounds were so severe , i can't even lift my head,
It was very hard to breathe,
That the direct sunlight hurts even more when it's daylight.
At night , i almost freeze to death
It felt like a thousand needles were piercing me.
I was given water only.
It seems they want me to survive till the time I'll be killed in front of everyone.
But i wasn't given any food anymore.
Every villagers passing by were laughing.
Some children's throw stones at me.
I remember those childrens, who always despised me ever since i was little.
The landlord and landlady often come to see if I'm alive or not.
But all they did was laugh at me or pour water at me.
Even when i was in no condition to cry or feel anything
They just keep on torturing me till they're satisfied.
Sometimes i faint and they pour water at me to wake me up.
Why do they hate me so much?
That even killing me won't be enough to satisfy them.
A girl about my age came to me
And said ,
"You're not a human, but a curse born with misfortune, dying won't solve anything, i pray that you'd suffer for the rest of eternity, you'll soon know the meaning of pain".
I looked at her eyes with terror while she laughed like a possessed doll.
Where are the love humans were taught ?
Does this mean humans have no love?
I was sure that i felt love when i was with my brothers
I said to myself
"Where did things go wrong?. "